“When I was growing up, my gender imagination always seems fluctuated. Sometimes I presumed myself to be a girl and sometimes a boy. The idea of gender was like a switch for me to transcend from one idea to other. For a long period, I couldn’t understand the triggers of gender dysphoria. All of a sudden it started with a small thing.

Going shirtless at the age of 9 was terrifying for me. I felt so much dysphoria to show off my upper part naked that I never wanted to show it off to anyone including my mom and dad. However, with the exploration of sexuality and gender somewhere this dysphoria surpassed my gender expression.

I started using the word Trans Non-binary, it’s an umbrella term for trans identity which doesn’t fit into binaries. It was never evident for me to see where I fit in.

My gender dysphoria is more with gender expression and less with the anatomy of my body. I never hated the body I was born with, the parts it has. However, I felt that I am still as equally to women, men, and both and sometimes even Xenogendered. That was a time I realized I didn’t have a specific word to address my gender identity.

People still question my Trans identity as I present myself visibly as male without drag. I do it because I am a demi boy without drag. But, drag helps me blend and kill all the boundaries of any gender structure.

I came across Gender Maverique when I was working on the pride flag project. When I read about it, I could see that it’s checking a lot of boxes of what I feel about my gender.”