“The year 2020 began with a rough note, as I discovered I had SMA Syndrome. I wasn’t gaining weight. After several tests, we realized that I was unable to gain weight because my duodenum was so small that it couldn’t pass through food since I was born. Consequently, I had to undergo surgery, and I felt like I was born again, as it was very difficult for me to walk or eat, and it took me almost two years to recover physically and mentally.

It takes ten times as long to put yourself back together as it does to fall apart. There were moments when I just wanted to give up on life and had suicidal thoughts. I knew I didn’t handle myself very well, not just because of the pain, but also the stress of seeing everybody around me suffer. Being in a hospital within four walls and not being able to do what I wanted to. The whole journey has taken a lot of time and toll on my mental health.

Before my surgery, I was often teased and, for a fact, I knew I was thin and I needed to push myself to gain weight, which I did. After my surgery, some people questioned me about my weight, knowing exactly what I had been through. Eventually, I realized, that no matter what you feel or how you feel, people will always put you down. The most important thing for me is my family. Despite troubling them, they never judged me for how I looked and still called me the strongest woman, although my weight dropped to 24 kg.

I pursued my Bachelor’s at the Anapurna School of Film and Media and currently working as a junior line producer at Pumpkin Productions.

I specialize in sound and direction. Being a part of this industry, and seeing how the media can reach millions of people, I want to create a change in the mindsets of the people that we only have one life and we need to live it to the fullest and don’t let our past trauma be the definition of who we are now.”